"He gave me pleasure and manufactured me relive points I would hardly ever have imagined dealing with again," she writes. It’s that the writer can (and does) assess all kinds of intersecting threads-growing old, class, want, regret-without a perception of disgrace or an impulse to sugarcoat any of the truths she uncovered through her time with A. She even delves into the possibility of motherhood: "He desired to have a kid with me.